Crazy

Yup....in a nut shell I am going crazy 5- 8 week old kittens and 3 kids.....a lot of work and it is making me crazy! The kittens climb everything!!! Including my bare legs!! The kids are constantly messing with them even though I am constantly yelling at them to leave the kittens alone. The kittens are being really rough with each other....they are fast approaching destruction of things in my home....we have GOT to find homes.....WTH will I do if I cannot???? I cannot keep 5 kittens! No way no how.....but I really do not want to take them to a shelter or toss them out to be strays....that is NOT the answer :-(

Kids are wound up! I took them to the park yesterday for 2 hours and it helped them burn off some pent up energy! I think we will be going more often than once a week. We are trying to do library days and at least 1 of the 3 argue they do not want to go. I give up and we end up staying home.....sometimes I swear it is easier to give in rather than fight them on it. The kids are really getting on my nerves! They have the non listening syndrome right now and I do not know how to cure it.....it is like once school let out I have 2 sons I do not recognize! I have allowed them to stay up until hubby gets home at 11:15pm.....they have managed to sneak around upstairs and not go to sleep until the wee hours of the morning....that is going to stop I need some down time and it is not good for them!

I am and probably will always be to some degree a night owl.....staying up until 4 am is not unusual for me. Years of working midnights have done that. Hubby has also become a night owl since working second shift...he comes home wound up from the stress of work things right now that he is staying up all night to. lol life has got to even out.

No word yet from Social Security.....could take 3-5 months for word....I really hope it isn't denied and I have to go through the appeal process. I really wish things were different because I would LOVE to go to work part time as an escape from my house and sadly my kids lol. This disease is not easy at times and the added crap of being so overweight does not help matters any. I am officially the heaviest I have ever been....even when pregnant I weighed 50 pounds less than I do right now.....time to get serious and do something about my weight problems. I need to lose 85 pounds at least just to be where I was 10 years ago....I felt better then and trust me I was not skinny....I was still 200 pounds. So, the adventure begins...no diets because what I need is a life style change and some ability to exercise. Difficult for me to do with my medical issues but I am going to start slow and do the best I can....if that does not work then I am going to look into lap band surgery. I CANNOT stay this way or the wheelchair will be sooner than later....I don't want to be in a wheelchair for as long as possible.

So that is it in a nutshell....I feel a little better venting here....guess I should blog more often.